The other day babe mentioned how someone said something about me being a stay at home mom and how that is living the dream. Which honestly it kind of is, in the sense that I get to be with my son 24/7 and I don't have to worry about someone else watching over him or if they’re doing a good job at it because I'm the one who does it ALL. Sometimes I feel like people think I don't do anything. When I say I have no time for certain things, I get looks like oh, you really don't have time, you do nothing all day you’re home all the time which at first used to really upset me because I used to think no one understands what I am doing or that people thought I was just lazy I thought maybe I truly am not doing everything I should be doing. Then I realized those same people who give me a funny glance when I say I don't have time or I can't do something can't take care of my son for more than 10 minutes without complaining and say something really stupid like I can babysit anytime for you. Which makes me feel a lot better about myself. I hadn’t really thought about myself as a stay at home mom. Me staying at home is the best decision we’ve made for our little family and right now it’s what’s best for us. Sometimes I do wish I was working. There will be a time when I’ll have to go to work and I won’t be able to spend as much time with my son as I do now so right now I’m definitely not taking any of this time for granted. I am so beyond grateful for my boyfriend for working as hard as he does and still taking the time to do little gestures for both Ian and I. He brings flowers home so often sometimes we don't even know where to put them. When he does it's honestly my favorite, not only because he brings me flowers but because Ian absolutely loves them! He always takes a big sniff and helps me arrange them in a vase. It's all the little things that we get to do together that make me realize how lucky I am to live the life that I do. I have an amazing partner and a tiny little sidekick and things just seem to keep getting better and better for us. I truly do believe 2016 is the year for us! BUT believe me things aren't always easy and my life is not perfect at all so when people say "you're so lucky you don't have to work you can do nothing all day" uh, no you have the entire parenting thing completely wrong. When I did work sometimes my schedule was terrible, working long hours until I was 6 months pregnant, and it was tiring but I've never felt more tired than I do now. I LOVE staying at home with my son but being a stay at home parent is not for everyone. It's not an easy job that's for sure. I think people forget that I pick and choose what I want to show on social media. I mean most of the day there are toys all over the floor, clothes I washed three days ago still sitting waiting to be put away, dirty dishes pilling up that need to be washed after Ian goes to bed. Sometimes it's beyond stressful and I want a break and most of the time I can't take one and sometimes washing the dishes and putting away the laundry is the easiest and most relaxing thing I do all day but being with my son and taking care of him and not having to leave him elsewhere is the best, being able to enjoy every moment with him is the most rewarding thing ever.