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New year, same mom...

Kellyn RiveraComment
New year, same mom...
  This is our reality. Messy hair, dirty clothes, running all over the place. Not only my son but myself as well, well, mainly myself. I am so beyond lucky I am the one behind the camera and not in front of it, I mean my son looks so cute even if he's covered in food with one sock on and mismatched clothes, I do not. I told myself I would always try to make myself look presentable, do my hair, my eyebrows, keep my nails looking nice...I would not be. that. mom. The mom that took 18 years to take some time out for herself. My mother calls me and she asks me how we're doing and she jokingly asks "did you shower today?" or we FaceTime and she says something like "wow, you did something to your hair" or "you actually put a little makeup on" it was funny at first but now I'm kind of over it, I know she doesn't mean anything by it but I really do need to get myself together. Ian is over a year and it's about time. It took me so long to realize I. am. that. mom.

 

This is our reality. Messy hair, dirty clothes, running all over the place. Not only my son but myself as well, well, mainly myself. I am so beyond lucky I am the one behind the camera and not in front of it, I mean my son looks so cute even if he's covered in food with one sock on and mismatched clothes, I do not. I told myself I would always try to make myself look presentable, do my hair, my eyebrows, keep my nails looking nice...I would not be. that. mom. The mom that took 18 years to take some time out for herself. My mother calls me and she asks me how we're doing and she jokingly asks "did you shower today?" or we FaceTime and she says something like "wow, you did something to your hair" or "you actually put a little makeup on" it was funny at first but now I'm kind of over it, I know she doesn't mean anything by it but I really do need to get myself together. Ian is over a year and it's about time. It took me so long to realize I. am. that. mom.

  Although I am that mom, the mom who is in pjs all day and never has her hair done, even if we go out (terrible), my goal for this year is to try to take some time out of my day to do something for myself. So far, one month into the new year I have kept up with my goal. I told myself I need to get myself together at least once a week and try to figure out a new routine for myself. I can no longer  sit in front of a mirror to do my hair and makeup for an hour or two like I once did but that's okay. Doing my makeup, my hair, my nails, or even just putting something on other than house clothes and stepping outside makes the biggest difference in how I feel and that's the entire point of the goal I set for myself. That's something I realize I sort of lost in the phase of becoming a mom. Everyone has those days where they look in a mirror and just feel great about themselves and I hadn't had many of those days, if any, in a really long time, and hearing "it's okay you're a mom no one is going to say anything" or anything of the sort just makes me feel that much worse about not looking my best when going out. So...I'm honestly trying and I'm pretty sure many moms can relate. I mean who wants to look back at old photos with a cute baby and a terrible looking lady right next to him. I want to show photos with my son proudly and I already know I'll be the embarrassing mom who takes out my sons baby photos when he brings his crush over and I can't do that if I look completely terrible in the photos now can I? 

 

Although I am that mom, the mom who is in pjs all day and never has her hair done, even if we go out (terrible), my goal for this year is to try to take some time out of my day to do something for myself. So far, one month into the new year I have kept up with my goal. I told myself I need to get myself together at least once a week and try to figure out a new routine for myself. I can no longer  sit in front of a mirror to do my hair and makeup for an hour or two like I once did but that's okay. Doing my makeup, my hair, my nails, or even just putting something on other than house clothes and stepping outside makes the biggest difference in how I feel and that's the entire point of the goal I set for myself. That's something I realize I sort of lost in the phase of becoming a mom. Everyone has those days where they look in a mirror and just feel great about themselves and I hadn't had many of those days, if any, in a really long time, and hearing "it's okay you're a mom no one is going to say anything" or anything of the sort just makes me feel that much worse about not looking my best when going out. So...I'm honestly trying and I'm pretty sure many moms can relate. I mean who wants to look back at old photos with a cute baby and a terrible looking lady right next to him. I want to show photos with my son proudly and I already know I'll be the embarrassing mom who takes out my sons baby photos when he brings his crush over and I can't do that if I look completely terrible in the photos now can I?