This is our reality. Messy hair, dirty clothes, running all over the place. Not only my son but myself as well, well, mainly myself. I am so beyond lucky I am the one behind the camera and not in front of it, I mean my son looks so cute even if he's covered in food with one sock on and mismatched clothes, I do not. I told myself I would always try to make myself look presentable, do my hair, my eyebrows, keep my nails looking nice...I would not be. that. mom. The mom that took 18 years to take some time out for herself. My mother calls me and she asks me how we're doing and she jokingly asks "did you shower today?" or we FaceTime and she says something like "wow, you did something to your hair" or "you actually put a little makeup on" it was funny at first but now I'm kind of over it, I know she doesn't mean anything by it but I really do need to get myself together. Ian is over a year and it's about time. It took me so long to realize I. am. that. mom.